‘Limbo Land Part 5’

This series I have written almost as a journal over the last few months. I never expected it to take this long and has been an interesting learning curve.

Mid- May, so 2 1/2 months after we accepted the job offer, the contract arrived. It looks pretty good… A couple of things needed ironing out, but we are staying.

It has been an interesting time these last couple of months and I’m sure as we house hunt, pack up our home and officially move to Japan that we have an interesting time ahead. But it has been a great learning curve.

I’ve learnt that only God knows what the future holds and we shouldn’t be depending too much on our plans. I’ve learnt to depend on Him more and to trust Him with my future.

I’ve learnt that I can do more than garden to be happy. I am appreciating life and my family a lot more.

Now I have a wonderful opportunity to travel and explore a part of the world that never really made my bucket list…

(And to be able to keep blogging about it too!)

Thank you Lord.

Read the rest of the series here:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5

‘Limbo Land Part 4’

This series I have written almost as a journal over the last few months. I never expected it to take this long and has been an interesting learning curve.

It is early May and this week has been very challenging. I have had to just let E’s schooling go as we still haven’t heard anything and as I said in Part 3, I don’t want to throw my toys out then have to rescind…

The not knowing has been every unsettling. I feel myself thinking negatively. Thoughts I don’t wish to have as I recognise them as early signs of depression. So often my thoughts have led me to God and I’ve asked- ‘Lord I just want to go home’. The longer they take- the more I want to go home for good in the summer.

It is Golden Week in Japan- a period of 10 days with 4 public holidays in it. On one of the days A and I went out for lunch. We had a huge discussion about it and he turned to me and said that every time I ask him if there is any news I add to his stress.

That’s not being supportive! He worries enough about our family’s future. I don’t have any need to worry about it but I don’t need to add to it.

A small little voice whispered to me ‘Trust Me’

That evening my prayer was different. I handed everything over and imitated Christ “Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.” (Mark 14:36 NLT) and I meant it.

The next day saw change….

A was copied onto an email from one of the dibdobs to another gently reminding him that our lives were on hold as we waited….

… good friends of ours skyped us today and offered their home as a base for M and a home for our mutt- 2 concerns we had about staying on.

Thank you Lord.

This morning we received an email saying that the offer would arrive tomorrow…

Will it be what we asked for?

Will we be here in September?

I have been a lot more at ease since that prayer 2 days ago. Whatever the future holds- God is in control. He always has been. I’ve just been the one who forgot that little detail.

Read the rest of the series here:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5

‘Limbo Land Part 3’

This series I have written almost as a journal over the last few months. I never expected it to take this long and has been an interesting learning curve.

It is the end of April and we are still waiting and I’m struggling to depend on God. School issues are beginning to play a part in my worries.

E is moving into Yr 3 in Sept which is a school transfer back in the UK and we had notification that she hasn’t got her place. Do we appeal the decision? Do we throw our toys out of the cot and remind our County Council that we are so close to the school that our drive is used as a parking space at pick up? But is there any point? I would feel like a muppet if I were to do all of that and then have to say “Actually I don’t need it- sorry.”

J is due to start nursery and I have visited a couple. They are very nice- though more academic than the UK and a lot more intensive. The nursery attached to the girls school is a full day-8:50-14:50! K will need to be at school from 8:15-16:00 so that makes for a very long day for J. But they would all be at the same school which if (or should I be saying when) there is an emergency (remember we are in earthquake country) it would be a lot easier…

A is worrying too. He does well to hide it, but it is showing. As a group of chief dibdobs organise our life, we have to just wait.

Reading back on Limbo Land Part 2– I have been reminded that I need to go and read the Bible verses again. Each day to choose one and memorise(no I hadn’t done that yet!). Whenever I’m worried- read the verse and pray.

Hand over and pray.

Trust and pray.

Wait and pray.

Lean on Him and pray.

Job 37:14-15
“Pay attention to this, Job.
Stop and consider the wonderful miracles of God!
Do you know how God controls the storm
and causes the lightning to flash from his clouds?”

Read the rest of the series here:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5

‘Limbo Land Part 2’

This series I have written almost as a journal over the last few months. I never expected it to take this long and has been an interesting learning curve.

Limbo Land Part 1 was written 5 weeks ago (late Feb or so), it is now early April and we are still waiting for an answer.

But it is getting closer. Last night A had a dinner with the chief dibdobs as they are in town and they discussed an aspect of the offer…

I sat at home thinking that they would be discussing the contract itself and that when A came home we would know…

I prayed about the discussion and was very nervous about the response.

But no. Still no further.

Strangely (only because it is SO unlike me) I have been able to hand over and wait. I can only say that it is Divine Intervention.

My F-I-L is amazed. My M-I-L would want to know. Would be chomping at the bit. Would be super stressed by not knowing. And normally so would I…

Divine Intervention.

Today I read a blog by Mark Altrogge about uncertain futures..

It was perfect. Just what I needed to get me through these uncertain times…

Divine Intervention.

It is amazing how despite the fact that having a Quiet Time is a rare occurrence and going to church on a Sunday hasn’t happened since I left the UK, that God is still looking out for me. Still guiding me. Still encouraging me.

Like the father of the prodigal son, He doesn’t give up. Always looking it for me.

Thank you Father God, for being there and looking out for me, despite the poor input that I have given our relationship. Amen.

I am going to memorize the verses so that whenever I worry about what the future will hold, I can just call upon them for encouragement.

Read the rest of the series here:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5

‘Limbo Land’

This series I have written almost as a journal over the last few months. I never expected it to take this long and has been an interesting learning curve.

We are in ‘Limbo Land’ as the company sorts out our contract. I am finding it quite stressful. Unsettling.
We moved here last August for a short-term secondment while A finished a consulting contract. The contract got extended to June and now an offer of a 2 year position. Having spoken to other expats- our story isn’t unique…

We have said that are willing to stay and now are just waiting while the company decides the details. So we have an 80% or maybe 90% chance of staying.
Weighing up the various options, it took A and I a month to decide that we would be willing to stay. So now that we’ve said ‘Ok- lets negotiate’ I’ve read it as 100% definite.

I started to home hunting online.
I nearly bought a car.
I’ve visited a school for J.

But A correctly pointed out that there isn’t point in doing it until we know. He also doesn’t want to move from our serviced apartment until after the summer break.{:-((}
But I want to now!
I want to settle.
To lay down roots.
To create a home that is ours- not be continuously worried about our children trashing the furniture or being too noisy or such like..
Limbo Land is beginning to drive me nuts.

I was gently reminded this week to just wait. Let things happen. To be patient.
An even quieter (much) reminded me of Matt 28:15… Do not worry about tomorrow …
So with great difficulty I am trying to stop worrying about the future and to just trust God for today, as who know what may happen….
I know that sometime soon- we will be out of Limbo Land. We might still be in Japan,we might be returning to England, but at least we will KNOW where we are supposed to be. Until then I will trust in the Lord.

Read the rest of the series here:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5