For the last month or two, I have been burning the candle at both and I have run out of wick.

Burn out or Depression?
I don’t know for sure. Having suffered from depression into the past, the symptoms are very similar, but I am viewing my symptoms as burnout- as they match a lot of the symptoms stated on the internet. I will, however,be monitoring my symptoms and if things don’t improve in the next few weeks, I will be visiting my GP for treatment for depression.

My Symptoms of Burnout:

  • I’m feeling tired and drained most of the time- I am finding it hard work to get up in the morning and goodness knows how many times recently I have paid for a taxi to take us the mile home as I don’t have the energy to walk even to the bus stop!
  • I feel like a crock- my shoulders are permanently stiff, my plantar fasciits has returned. My body is crying out for down time.
  • My sleep habits have changed- I don’t want to go to bed. Sleep isn’t restful, so I try to avoid it, by going to bed at midnight.
  • My negative voice is winning the cheer leading competition (Boy is it shouting loudly at the moment!)  and I have nothing good to say to myself. (A very scary thought!)
  • I am moaning a lot to my friends about how stressed I am.
  • I couldn’t be bothered to do what needs doing- I don’t feel like cooking (thankfully my freezer has a fair few meals that need eating) or tidying (hmmm) or the laundry (a problem when A is trying to pack for a business trip and items are wet or dirty!) or the packing (a big problem as we move out of our serviced apartment in just over a week)
  • I’m taking out your frustrations on others- especially my children. I DO NOT like the mother that they have at the moment. Perhaps I should go and reread my own blog on Harsh Words

Things need to change and God in His graciousness has provided me with a way out.

About Cheryl

I am a child of God, a wife and a mother of 4 children. Some days are good. Some days are frustrating. Some days are just plain insane. In between the mayhem, I loved to go for walks with our mutt, potter in the garden and enjoy the beauty that surrounded us. That all changed in August 2012 when we waved goodbye to our mutt and garden, our eldest at Uni in Gloucester and moved to Tokyo for 4 months. And yes- we are still here...
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